Had been days I didnt come up here. Busy days. Still, busyyy..

By my side if u r able to.

13th of Nov.

If there is second chance, will u come back?

May be i had misunderstood u that moment.
May be. but it's too late.

The most stupid thing I ever did.
Why do I still flipping ur twitter.
12 tweets about me.
I thought u forsaken me months ago.
Why do you still care about my life?
Why do you still wanna have your eyes on me?
Why?
I thought the you said you will no longer care and just wanna stop all these shits?

Wat I can do now? Stay and wait?

If everything can reverse. I rather get back to that moment. And stop my dad from sending me to hospital. Just let me die will be better.

Not others giving up on me. Just Im giving up myself. No further explanation. Just let me screw my life.

1 into 2.

no way out. If i have 10k. I will move to others country and start a new life. Everything suck now.

if I dun have such burdens. I think I already committed suicide. Mb

Letting go is really hard. Busy up my life. Probably it helps. :D

Is my parents ask u to ignore me?

settle up all the stupid stuffs. Let's spend my night out there like a lost lion. :D

Lalalalalalalala, stop caring, go out for my nightlife. :)

same, just the same. No difference at all.

Easy, juz tell me, GET FK OUT FROM MY LIFE.  I will do it then. :)

And u lied to yourself. :)

Saw notification, on your Facebook, realizing it's me. Not even check it out. And u off the app. Nice one. K. So now I'm like an idiot tricking by a girl.haha.

WELL. THX FOR THE IGNORANCE. WELL PLAYED.

Everything will be the best. If I have a time machine and a time stopper.

Right here waiting.

Hope that....

Besides wearing the headphone, listening to the songs.
Im juz scrolling through the twitter, facebook. Nothing is gonna be fun now.
Life sucks.

Cant sleep again.
Wat to do?
This feeling is juz like the moment I'm in that centre.
3:43A.M.

Who did I used to be?
How was there ever me without you?
Don't want to ever be without you.

Missing is Killing too. Damn it.

Juz try to give up mb. It's hard yet. no choice I think.

45 mins ago. :(

Haiz.

Worrying. /.\

What happen to you? :((

I think I'm juz bothering you. Sorry.

Ego kills.

Not gonna disappoint my mum and dad again.
It's time to repay what they had done for me.

4 days in that place, 3 nights homeless experiences.
More than 10 people telling me the same statement.

"When you are in trouble, dun rely on urself, ur smartness,  ur thinkings, and ur plans.
For God is there for u."

The same lesson for years. I failed it again and again.

Where is my vision?

No one can understand ur life. But God do.

I shouldn't stay in the lower part.
I should be standing on the top. Having a worldwide view, with a vision, with my dreams.

It's time to wake up.

Now only I realized, time that I had wasted on useless things are just so much.

What am I fking doing?
Knowing where're my mistakes. Knowing where're my problems. Yet I turned away from it.
Whose life doesn't has rises and falls.
Fk myself.


CAN ANYONE FKING TELLING ME WHO AM I?!

So what's happening now?

Surviving hard.
My life is in a mess since that moment.
Spiritually, mentally, physically and relationally in war. /.\
Oh Lord, I really Nid another breath from you to make me alive again. :(

She is juz tired may be?

I want it to be permanent, not temporary.

Wat I can say is, be patient, juz a little while more.
Rushing doesn't make thing happen well. :(

Kids, wait me, I will back to change ur life there.

Get my guts on, time to face the world of problems,

Finally I heard her sweet voice. AA

Waiting her to wake up... Zz

It's a finally.

Im feeling the taste of freedom like the birds in the sky. Head to Pahang first.

You can do it, Joe. 

You are always a miracle makers.

Everything are done, left 5 hours.

13 hours. Sorry kid, ain't gonna teach you guys piano. I'm leaving pretty soon. May God gives you guys the talents.

I should have be the one waiting you. Sorry for just leaving a short message.

Are you searching my name in the class?:(

So you tell me that IGCSE will start here by next 2 weeks? Fk you.

Wat a good meals.

Pity those orphans. I will be back after I left. Just paying some visitations.

Ur hug will probably cheer me up.

So this is how u fking responded to your son while your son is facing sufferings and tortures? We'll played. 2 more days. I'm gonna do something big. Fk this stupid idiot motherfucker place.z

What a dream. Thought I really have my phone in my hand texting u through whatsapp. That's wtf.zz

The deadliest thing in the world is that you being separated from someone u loved deeply.

Realizing it is 3:42 in the midnight.

Your smile and your pretty face just appeared whenever I close my eye.

2230 now, are u asleep?

He is a great man, yet sorry, I gotta go my own way.

Thx for the teachings and the little comforts.

I will be back soon. 3 more days.

I could had have the chance to listen to your voice.

I ain't crushing, I'm really deep in love.

If I have the chance, can I date u and treat you like a princess?

I have so much thoughts within me.

Nobody to share.

For me, missing is like commit suiciding now.

Besides watching the clock ticking, I found nothing to do there.

The pain of losing everything within a night.

Finally, I regret.

Claudine Adele, missing you so much. That feeling is like the heart being tear into 2. Hope things can just bounce back to the moment where you hugged me and gave me a kiss. I really love holding your hand and hugging you from the back. Hope there is another chance.

:(